At times it seems like,
It would never be,
And in the end would be left,
A broken, shattered me!

But who knows!
It may be a dream come true.
But even if it does,
What would I do?

I don’t know what I want,
Or would ever get,
I dream about someone,
I never even met!

Am I insane?
Or is it just a phase of life?
If it doesn’t happen,
I don’t think I’d survive!

What was I thinking?
I was my own foe!
Now I’m crazy about someone,
I don’t even know!

At times I wish,
I could end it all.
But what would I do,
If I ever fall?

My life is nothing,
Like I dreamed it would be.
I’ve lost all for one thing,
Which now matters most to me!

Now I’m just sitting back,
Waiting for the right time.
In a few years,
It’d be right to make the sacrifice.

I’ve lost a million times,
In my thoughts.
So it really doesn’t hurt,
Giving a few more shots!

Still the fear remains,
By my side.
The fear of rejection,
And of no place to hide.

Oh dear God!
What have I got myself in?
They call it ‘love’,
Is it a sin?

One thing keeps me going,
That is hope!
But someday with the truth,
I’ll have to cope!

The more I wish,
That day never arrives,
The harder it gets,
To live this life!